I hate being overworked. I know, even as I am doing it, that I am going down a bad road. A path that leads to less God time, less worship, more selfishness, disconnect from my friends and family... not to mention the physical exhaustion.
I always struggle with balance. I have a feeling this will be a lifelong battle. I think it all boils down to 2 things: lack of trust that I will be taken care of and the inability to say no. The distrustful part says "Oh God, I know you promise that it will be ok, but I still need to do all this work to make sure everything is REALLY ok" and the people pleasing part of me gets me heaping more commitments and tasks on an already teetering pile.
But trying to remove things from the pile is difficult too. Its hard to determine what stays and what goes. And how to take things out without sending everything crashing down. It all comes back to that trust part I suppose. Just give the whole pile over and God will give me back what I need.
